I feel so diffident in your preasence,

Your confident playfulness drips all over me

You play with me like a little boy would play

You spiral my emotions

I sit here speechless

First, you smell my hair

I look into your dreamy eyes

Your innocence concealed by others

But blaring loud in my ears

Your weariness shows in your dark puppy eyes

Your life, your experience, your hurt

Carefully put away

I reach out to you to embrace you

To let you know that I care

More than anyone else ever could

I brush your hand

We fit perfectly as we embrace

Like two perfectly crafted puzzle pieces

If only I could kiss you without hesitation

Without any thoughts of entangled relationships

Our hearts both contain so much complexity

Our pasts are sickly warped

But the noise of the silent hours

Molds our problems into one shared friendship

It seems that to you,

It is all so superficial

It saddens me to know that I need you

From the deepest hole in my heart

You are beautiful, innocent, my dear

We long to play, frolic, and never grow up

Yet we are drawn toward the end of the sidewalk

The end of the fairytale

I long to be held

But do you really feel more?

Do you hold that capacity to feel

As deeply as I do?

 No, it draws for much too much complexities

I crave your presence

So your pillow lips would linger on mine

You make me feel so giggly and bubbly inside

Perhaps I don't have to grow up

Perhaps this hope that you have given me

Can last forever

Perhaps not

I feel so happy, so passionate, so optimistic

How could you do that to me?

What an incredible aura you give off

But perhaps I interpret your flirtatious gestures

As more than what they really are

But you keep me to yourself

There is that chance that you wish for

Something in the shallow waters

But whatever my contortions

Of your feelings may be

You've allowed me to dream of love in a new way

But the fear of hurt lies

Waiting patiently in the background

I know your are but aren't strong

Confusion lurks in your soft eyes

Despite the difficulties that present themselves

I am truly happy

Trully filled with wholeness

Let's snuggle

Smile with me, tickle me,

And make me giggle.

-Chelsey