Wednesday, 31 December 2008

• Confusion Basically Sucks

  So, I have established the fact that I love him. He and I are perfect for each other. We have been friends for years and everything just seems to work for us.

  But then he came into the picture. I used to hate being in Band. But ever since that first meeting, football games sucked a little bit less. Not only because I could watch my gorgeous boyfriend run around in tight pants, but also because he was there. I don't recall the very first moment my boyfriend and I met. But I do recal meeting him for the first time. Every second lingers in my mind like last note of a violin fading the end of a beautiful song. Funny how that works. Every word that was exchanged that night is imprinted in my memory. Every thought that passed through my mind filed away in a cabinet somewhere in my brain.

  I do not know why this meeting was so important. Are we nothing more than friends? Not knowing the future is intensly frustrating. But fate said we should meet, and meet we did. Now, it is up to me, I'm afraid, to decide what to make of it.

  God, why does life have to be so confusing? The feelings I have for him are solid, strong, and sure. On the other hand, my feelings for him are sketchy, skeptical, and shaky. I am not willing to even ask if I would give up one for another.

  Yet.

  Chelsey

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